Quick Side Note: I’m so stinkin new to this whole blogging thing. I’m learning as I go, but I’m loving to be honest. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ll blog twice a week, maybe three times, depending on my thoughts. I’m not going to be releasing 10 posts at once because that’s just not fair or easy on you. So keep tuned, and follow, so that its easier to see inside the mind of Miss Jackie.enjoy.
So often people, myself included, focus on the past. On living in who we think we are. How often do we fully analyze the deepest part of ourselves. Are we happy with ourselves? If not, why? Better yet why not change? I just recently realized that who I have been for the majority of my life is who I once was. Today is a day to decide who I want to be, why I want to be her, and continue to discover her. It will be an ongoing, changing, life-long process, as it will be with you too.
This all reminds me of something a friend once told me in Oakland. When I was serving my year and a half mission for my church, me and my companion (missionaries go two by two) ran into a lady from a different country. She was beautiful and radiated Christs light even though she wasn’t of our same faith. She said something that I fell in love with. She said “Who you are only matters to two people…you and God”. Who are you at the end of the day. After the makeups off, and you are alone. Who are you when your hairs down and its just you? Are you true to yourself? Because it really only does matter to two people. Others will judge you along your journey but why let that deffer you from being happy?
This same friend said something else that I will never forget….”You do good when people are watching..you do better when its just you and God watches”. This phrase means so many things to me. All of which I wouldn’t be able to state in a simple post (none of my posts seem to be simple). You do better when its just you alone. So many questions pop into my mind, like “Why be better?”,”Why fake ourselves around others?”, “Why not be our best selves, and true to ourselves, and God 100% of the time?”
If you’re like me, and have different faces (chameleon-like) then I suggest that you, like me, take time to find yourself. Who you were in the past can’t and doesn’t define who you are now, and who you can be unless you do nothing to change. I realized this as it was a slap in the face. My time in the hospital opened my eyes like nothing else, yet, two weeks later I’m back to bad habits. I’m not true to myself, and who I want to be. I’m still finding her. I’ll be finding her for a lifetime and I’m excited. The future is bright for everybody and when you take time for you, true time for you, your life will be renewed. Who you are now & Who you can be may be different. Its up to you to be true to yourself at the end of the day and decide your potential. My last words for this post…if you have habits you don’t like, change them, if you have character flaws that aren’t true to who you are fix them. IMPROVE daily, and grow into the real you. Put off the Chameleon that we all can be and OWN YOU.